Tomorrow is my Birthday!

I remember when I was kid or I should say years ago, I used to be so excited for my birthday. Excited for different things, whether its partieng with friends or shopping a nice birthday dress, opening gifts, good food, etc etc....BUT now it seems like another day. Though I want to do something atleast a little different or special to pamper myself but the excitement which used to be years ago, its not really there anymore....its almost like its a different me now.

Birthdays seem to be boring now. We will go out for some shopping and lunch but thats something we do almost kind of everyweekend. Feeling bored right now and missing old extreme fun filled birthday days! Nastalgic.................................................

I guess I am in Nesting Phase!!!!!

Lately, as I am approaching further in my third trimester I feel the need of changing decor and making home look better and also, the urgency and keen need of more organization everywhere -in kitchen, in closet, my jewellary, bathroom stuff, accessories etc.....I remember in my last pregnancy too, i had felt the keen intent of organization. I guess that's what they call it NESTING PHASE. A phase where in every being whether its animals, birds or human beings, we all tend to be prepared with the neat and appropriate nest for our coming generation.

I feel the energy to organize stuff around home and change decor of home to make it look more appropriate and somehow, kids friendly too. I have took quiet a few home projects in hands for instance- living room, guest bedroom & guest bathroom decor change and kitchen and my bathroom reorganization. Lot of things still do but days go quick lately with work, commute, doctor appointments and home erins.

Not sure if everyone else experiences the similar kind of nesting phase during pregnancy or not. Would luv to hear your experiences and/or comments!

My aproach towards people!

I usually go with a very open frame of mind when I come across anyone. I don't go with preconcieved notions and/or any assumptions when I meet anyone. Some people feel that that I can be a friend to every tom, dick and harry. But unfortunately, thats not the case. There is noone who's tom dick and harry in my friends. Infact those who look common are one of the most amazing people many a times. I guess I tend to go with the optimistic thoughts and try and discover everyone gradually and in that process, for most of the people I feel great and sometimes I realise that my ethics and values don't go well with few. I definitely have got hurt as well because of my initial optimistic approach, since I realise at times later that I shouldn't have got my self emotionally attached to relationships which probably didn't deserve my time and love from the begining.

For me to respect and cherish my friendship with anyone somethings are very important:
1) That person should be first a good human being.
2) That person should have a good heart.
3) NOT SELFISH. Even if that person may continue to be a great and not selfish to me but if I get to see him/her extremely selfish and/or escapist even with anyone else, that turns me off towards them.
4) I hate to see when a friend can not stand for another in either good or bad times. Thats turns me off too.
5) When one person tries to take undue advantage of another, thats another one.
6) Cutting & ignorant towards anyone's feelings. I call it knowingly hurtful.
7) Faqueness. We all tend to be not completely same in and out. Thats understandable but when, when someone tends be faque....thats a no no.
8) Most Imp one....FULL OF YOURSELF! When I see someone so full of them as in who think they know all, not open to listen/learn/ consider any other option/opinion at ALL and only concerned about there thoughts, there liking etc. is a NOGO too.
9) His way or highway types most of the times, is another attitude that puts me off.
10) Not thankful as in never acknowledging other person's efforts or time is anothey thing that makes me step backward.

Well, i know in friendship there shouldnt be any conditions but my these thoughts are not just for for friendship these are simple ethics and values expectations for me to pursue and cherish my relationship and /or friendship. That being said, We all know who we are from inside and sooner or later the truth shines. And above all, we all are answerable to GOD!

Thanks for listening my thoughts....

aanya - meri gudiya meri jaan!

aanya - meri gudiya meri jaan,
tere bin jeena bilkul nahi hai aasaan....
khushi ho yah gam...
tere na hone ka har pal afsos karenge hum....
aaj bhi tere naam me basi hai meri gudiya meri jaan....
sach tujh bin jeena bilkul nahi hai aasaan.
Nahi bhul sakti mai tere woh chote chote se haath woh tere chote chote se pao,
afsos hai mujhe, nahi dekh sakhi mai tere nanhe umadte se bhao....
kash tere nanhe se pyare se honth mujhse kuch keh paate,
kash mere kaan teri awaaz, teri kilkari sun paate.
kash tere hath tere papa ki ungliyan tham paate,
aur humesha sochti hu ki kash hum zindagi ek sath jee pate.....
aaj bhi tujhe alvida nahi keh sakti hu meri jaan
mai kya karu, tere bin jeena bahut mushkil hai, sach nahi hai aasaan....
tere sang sochi thi har diwali, kaun suljhayega ab yeh uljhane aur tere na hone ki paheli....
mere liye to mere eeshwar se pehle mai leti hu tera naam,
tujhe apne mun me chum kar shuru karti hu har naya kaam,
aaj bhi apne se alag nahi kar paayi hu tere liye liya har woh samaan.
nahi malum tu kaha aur kyu gum ho gayi,
yeh zindagi tujhe hum se itni dur aur na jaane kaha kyu le gayi,
aaj bhi duyaon me jaane anjaane tujhe mangti hu mai,
tere na hone ke ehsaas se aaj bhi dur bhagti hu mai.....
kya kahu tere jaane ke baad se itni hairaan pareshaan hu aur meri aatma ko ek pal ke liye bhi nahi mila hai araam,
tujhse bhichad ke jeena bahut mushkil hai meri nanhi gudiya meri jaan !