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Today when I met with my grief councellor, I discussed with him how I am tired of fighting with our religious rules. I haven't been able to visit my aanya's grave ever since I have gotten pregnant since priests and religion says its not recommended to goto cemetry in pregnancy. Now, I when I will deliver- I want to take my child first to aanya and want to tell aanya why her mom was not able to see her and want her brother to get her elder sister's blessings first. For me my aanya is my god in many ways. But then again I heard its not recommended to take newborn right to cemetry from hospital. This is enough.....I dont want rules and religion that keeps me away from my own JAAN..my daughter for so loong.
Lot of things have started to bother me lately. I am frustrated.....As you know we havent shared my pregnancy news with many friends and family and I am tired of this SHHHHHHH!
Really concerned and tired of thinking about whether I will be able to bond myself emotionally in as strong way as I am with aanya. I am really worried about my emotional bonding with my baby boy to come.
God please help me in resolving these conflicts. I am tired both physically and mentally!!!!!
Hey Gunjan,
ReplyDeleteI think u shud follow ur heart and dont listen to nething which is "religious". I think u must visit ur Aanya coz u want to.. About taking the baby there, u shud ask ur pediatrician rather than extended family.. If its ok do it if not then wait till recommended.. U will fall in love with ur baby for sure if not now in time so dont worry about that.. Its natural :) Take care.. Best wishes, Shailly
hey ganju relax dear. Its really heart touching... but please for god shack plz come out of ur shock and go forward for ur upcoming future. u c a very shinny light is waiting for u cutee. Ur heart is so clean, now its all over for u. One aanya will come back to u but it will take time... jus wait for her and be ready to welcome ur kid sweety. God bless u. love u always...!!!!
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